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Free Carbohydrates!

I must confess I fell off the wagon. Since my daughter’s birthday we can celebration in San Luis I have been eating a bunch of garbage and sugary treats. At the beginning I did he thought it was gonna be a big deal. My Brain justify it real quick. “It’s only to celebrate her birthday” or “She is turning 3 only one”. Well it didn’t turn out as I expected. I was binging and over eating for over a week after we came back home. I bet not know how to go back to my keto meals and regular routine. I gained weight back.  10 pounds to be more specific.  It was an untill yesterday “May the forth be with you”  when I was able to stay away from everything I   I knew I couldn’t have.  It was hard. I felt I was sick. My body was against me.  I crave sugar and  with the products all night long. Even those foods I regularly don’t like.  I felt the urge to shovel in my mouth anything and everything that have sugar but I didn’t. I fought it and I told on myself. I talk to my husband and let him know what was I going through.  He was patient with me and get me accountable until we went to bed.

As my husband packed his luggage bag this morning before going out of town I expressed to him concerned about me being alone. I’ll be at home with the kids all weekend long. DANGER!  Usually that’s when I eat the most. When I’m feeling bored, alone or unattended.  Before he left I told on myself again and express my fear to him. He kindly suggested to stay busy and take the kids to a family night in a church nearby. I wasn’t sure at first if I wanted to go. That would involve a little bit of socializing which I don’t feel like doing (I guess these might be side effects from detoxing). But I made the effort and drove there.

All I heard about this event was there was going to be bouncy houses and games for the kids. But Lord have mercy!  First thing as you walk in the building a table with all you can eat pizza (with different toppings and it was from Papa Murphy’s), chocolate chip cookies and individual bags of chip awaits you.  This was only my second day of sugar and wheat products detox.  It was hard, it was very hard to turn away food.  Not only because I am not strong in now but think about it it’s free food. There is nothing harder to turn away from but free food. It’ll matter what kind of food it is .  It could be any bag of empty calories, but if his free… Heck yeah!  And pizza. Are you serious call? Pizza been my favorite demon my whole life. No! I did not eat it my friend but I won this battle.

I know I will  struggle with temptations  for the rest of my life.  But I was thinking about it after I got home and it seems like all you find to eat is carbs. It’s almost like the carb overeating  it’s being highly encourage  specially to our kids. I work really hard to teach my kids to make better eating choices when.  Generally they do pretty good. But what can they do when all the choices they have are between carbs. Not healthy whole carbs,  but process ones. Those that helps you to develop an addictive behavior.  I fear for them. Hopefully they will understand better as they grow. And maybe by then  we will have better choices.

Mrs B

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